remember back when before you lost your viriginity... or before you slept with someone for the first time... and you thought: "This will change EVERYTHING" and then...it didn't?
i was just thinking about expectations this past weekend.
I just think its interesting how sometimes you feel like something is soooo huge and soooo incredibly beyond anything you've ever experienced...that you're positive that your world will be changed forever, and your foundaton will be shaken
but then, it happens. and then it's over. and you think: "That's what the fuss was all about?!?"
in a way it's sort of liberating because the fear is gone and you have the freedom to explore and experience things, and in another way kind of a let down, because as much as you were afraid of your world changing, you were sort of expecting it to and all that that would entail.
:D
sigh.
anyway, i was just thinkin' that's all.
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Heh.... interesting.
quiet you. :P
I still can't see your masthead... :(
i know, i'm not sure what the deal is there. i can't even fix it or try again because the file was on Fiona. sigh.
One of the biggest burdens we carry around with us are our expectations.
Some of those things *did* change my life; they *did* change everything, but I think maybe it's because I decided they should.
Losing my virginity, for example, did change me forever, in very palpable and real ways. But a large part of that, I think, was my deciding that it *did* make me a different person.
I like what lotus07 says; I think that's very true. And I think expectations are things that you can cause to come true, or you can change the past by revisiting your expectations if disappointed. Remembering things slightly differently (not as in attempting to alter the facts ["But I *did* finish my project, but my teacher didn't, apparently, see the UFOs that carried off my parents that morning. It's hardly fair"], but in trying to change the way you thought about things to begin with).
Zigwa!
All I remember is that it took 3 different tries on 3 different nights, with the same guy mind you, to finally lose my virginity.
Did it change me? Meh, yeah in the physical sense it did. I dont remember, I was a teengager with raging hormones. I didnt think about that kinda stuff.
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